[casually puts earlier date on assignment before turning it in to make it look like i’m not a procrastinating piece of shit]
I walked 28 minutes more after I saw you.
I was walking home in the fall one day
and saw you, where you usually are.
You were smiling, looking the best you’ve looked
in a while, with someone who wasn’t me
and that killed something inside
in some fucked up way.
I didn’t have the courage to walk by you,
say hello in a way
that feels like I’ve never known you.
I didn’t want to make you feel guilty or uneasy
but even more, I didn’t want to see you forget me
so I turned around the corner
and took the long way home,
walked a little extra more minutes
because walking towards you hurt so much more.
I waited 28 hours one day
to hear from you, old love.
Tell you how the day had been
and now much I was missing you
ever since we’ve been apart.
Those days when we talked
still haunt me to this day,
don’t know if it’s out of anger or relief
or just a feeling that you should have stayed.
Either way, I have tried to forget
but I can’t, and I don’t know what to do
with all these stories, and memories
and these little things about you
most importantly our jokes,
that no one else can get.
I loved you for 28 days, you know.
Even though there were more,
those 28 days were the best
that I’ve spent loving anyone
because first loves are nothing like the rest.
You showed me what love is really like,
I learned it’s not everything that’s extravagant.
It’s just simple pleasures in life
that I had found with your hand in mine.
There wasn’t anger, there wasn’t regret,
no race to bare each other’s soul,
just two dumb kids
who thought they had nothing to lose.
We were stupid, we were fools
didn’t know how much love can be cruel.
Two people loving each other is never enough,
no matter what poems and words say.
If the world is not on your side
when it is your turn to love,
nothing can ever save you
from it’s ferocious tide
that will sweep you away.
A long far away look
and a fast exist
is all that has been left of what we were.
I walked 28 minutes more
after I saw you that day,
Went home alone, to a room
where i didn’t find you
but it’s still a place
where your memories will always stay.
I wish you walked those 28 minutes with me that day.